10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick' she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as 'best friends'. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said 'I had the best time, thanks!' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, 'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said 'you came!'. She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
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i found this from my email..
IF one of them tell out wat's in their mind..
den it wun ended up lyk tat?..
IF there is another chance..
den he will tell her?..
or..
she will tell him?..
in reality..
many people oso..
"IF tis n tat..bla bla bla.."
"IF... den i will.."
so many "IF".. =="
v shld stop "IF" and look forward eh?..
if v continue to "IF.. bla bla bla.."..
but not improving ourselves at the same time..
thr will be more "IF" ba?..
wat am i trying to say?..
i really dunno..
*swt!* ==!!
hmm..
appreciate the chances tat r given to u..
appreciate wat u got..
don blame others for wat u had lost..
don blame urself for not bein a good person.. [human r not perfect! (",)]
if not good enuf..
den learn from wat u din do well~ =)
it's not a shame to ask people whr/wat u did wrong..
it's worst when u don admit tat u're wrong!
thr is only 1 ytd, 1 today & 1 tml..
wat has passed is past..
we couldnt go back to the past anymore..
(we will think/tot abt the past of coz.. they are memories wert.. memories r meant to be kept.. no matter it's happie o sad 1.. no matter how hard v try to throw it out from our mind.. it will still remain in our brain.. no way to delete memories.. therefore, look back to our memories.. n compare.. whether v haf grown from our history o not.. ^^)
walk forward..
den u'll see..
actually there are more better view of everyth~!! =]
do wat u think u wanna do..
try watever u wanna try..
don regret later on..
if u got questions..
den go ask for the answers~
don stack the "why-sSs" in ur brain..
they will suffocate u one day.. =x
i asked u once..
i asked u twice..
but still no exact answer from u..
den too bad..
bye bye le..
if u answer me..
of coz i will be glad..
bcoz i can get an answer to my question..
but u din answer..
so..
juz forget it bah..
doesnt matter anymore..
get out of my life!
wat's urs..it will be urs..
wat's not urs.. it will not be urs..
so y force a cat to live wid a dog?..
haha.. rite? xp
顺其自然吧~
开心就好~ =)
*~ eNd ~*
IF one of them tell out wat's in their mind..
den it wun ended up lyk tat?..
IF there is another chance..
den he will tell her?..
or..
she will tell him?..
in reality..
many people oso..
"IF tis n tat..bla bla bla.."
"IF... den i will.."
so many "IF".. =="
v shld stop "IF" and look forward eh?..
if v continue to "IF.. bla bla bla.."..
but not improving ourselves at the same time..
thr will be more "IF" ba?..
wat am i trying to say?..
i really dunno..
*swt!* ==!!
hmm..
appreciate the chances tat r given to u..
appreciate wat u got..
don blame others for wat u had lost..
don blame urself for not bein a good person.. [human r not perfect! (",)]
if not good enuf..
den learn from wat u din do well~ =)
it's not a shame to ask people whr/wat u did wrong..
it's worst when u don admit tat u're wrong!
thr is only 1 ytd, 1 today & 1 tml..
wat has passed is past..
we couldnt go back to the past anymore..
(we will think/tot abt the past of coz.. they are memories wert.. memories r meant to be kept.. no matter it's happie o sad 1.. no matter how hard v try to throw it out from our mind.. it will still remain in our brain.. no way to delete memories.. therefore, look back to our memories.. n compare.. whether v haf grown from our history o not.. ^^)
walk forward..
den u'll see..
actually there are more better view of everyth~!! =]
do wat u think u wanna do..
try watever u wanna try..
don regret later on..
if u got questions..
den go ask for the answers~
don stack the "why-sSs" in ur brain..
they will suffocate u one day.. =x
i asked u once..
i asked u twice..
but still no exact answer from u..
den too bad..
bye bye le..
if u answer me..
of coz i will be glad..
bcoz i can get an answer to my question..
but u din answer..
so..
juz forget it bah..
doesnt matter anymore..
get out of my life!
wat's urs..it will be urs..
wat's not urs.. it will not be urs..
so y force a cat to live wid a dog?..
haha.. rite? xp
顺其自然吧~
开心就好~ =)
*~ eNd ~*
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