Sunday, May 5, 2013

5 / 5 - 13 th

如往常般.. 一想东西~ 就会一连串想很多很多很多.. haiz..
靠近的事情嘛.. 

她, 是乎有点记性不好了.. 听觉好像也不太准.. 
每次我听到的.. 若在她面前说给别人听.. 或 说着的时候被她听见.. 她都会对着我说.. "没有!我没有讲过啰.. ! " 10次内.. 9次都是酱.. 不知道.. 到底有问题的.. 会不会是我自己? 为什么她从来都没想过/ 问过我 whether 我的耳朵像小他那样听不清楚呢? 要不要看医生?.. etc...
我好好地对她说的东西.. 10 次9.9次都会变成不好的东西.. 原因? 我也不知道.. 
她常说.. 别取笑小他.. 要多帮小他.. 多鼓励小他.. 因为  理由sss ...
那为什么当初我还不习惯驾车的时候.. 没人替我着想呢? 还一直一直地责怪我没去登记.. 说这说那的.. 说我的人.. 
你.. 不也一样没履行带+陪我去登记的任务吗? 
你们 两个她.. 性格+ 脾气+ 态度+ 语气+ 心态+ 都很相像.. 所以每次无论妳们怎样互相数落对方.. 情况都不会变好..
我, 这个多余的奢侈品.. 总是让自己不知该如何是好.. 


全部人都没有耐心听我说话.. 所听取的.. 

只有部分的20% 而已吧?? 

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

习惯

有些习惯,是与生俱来的。。 
有些习惯,是渐渐养成的。。 
有些习惯,不知是好或坏。。 
有些习惯,让我不记得到底是自己的还是别人的。。 
但。。 这些始终都成了自己的习惯。。

习惯。。 到底好不好呢?有好,也有坏的时候。。 

习惯有你在身边的时候,连过马路都不用看。。 
习惯有你在身边的时候,不怕东西吃不完。。 
习惯有你在身边的时候,有人载上载下。。
习惯有你在身边的时候,可以说不出理由地哭。。
习惯有你在身边的时候,你玩你的游戏;我看我的戏~
习惯有你在身边的时候,可以偶尔打架~ 
习惯有你在身边的时候,把你气到发神经~
习惯有你在身边的时候,不觉得那么害怕。。
。。。。

在一间习惯的家。。 却没有习惯的安全感。。 又有谁能够想象?
犹如住在火山边缘。。 时而平静;时而爆发。。 
就算正常的人。。也会某天变不正常去吧?
到底该不该远离火山呢? ( >?< )
远离的话,又该到多远去呢?。。。。。。

Thursday, August 30, 2012

problem? solved? yes. no.

it's been a long long longggg time didnt write here.. 
hmm.. recently have lotz of random thoughts in my head.. n it really caused me major headache like all the time.. sometimes, i know what im thinking abt.. sometimes, i don't! it is very very frustrating! = = 
most headache that i got is from the problem of being jobless.. eek.. 
well.. i wanted a vacation or sth for a mth but nth really came out .. just bcz i planned to have a vacation tat's y it wouldnt happen gua.. no matter what i planned.. it will just failed to be accomplished! 
b4 u work.. "don't be silly, u have no money n not even started to earn money.. how r u goin to enjoy? "
after u work.. "don't be silly, whr can u find such holidays for urself? u are nt the boss~ don even think abt a week of holidays......." 
arghh... 

and think about this, even when u know what u want, or probably what u wanna study.. without a stable job.. how r u going to achieve that?
a job that u want/like/interested, might be a dam low income job.. 
a job that u need/not related to what u study, might be a dam high pay job.. 
so.. tell me.. how a normal human will make a decision on this? 
when u go for low income job.. u wouldnt be able to afford urself to further study some more..
when u go for the high income job.. after u work for long term.. im afraid that i wouldnt want to study anymoreee.... !! 

besides this.. i don wanna trouble anyone to bring me to work.. when i need to work at far far place.. i need to travel long long hours.. by public transports.. n not to mention that.. buses .. usually are not on time one.. it is a big disaster ok? another solution? stay outside.. well.. im not allowed to do so.. and the rental is so fcuking high ok?! i even heard.. a store room size that u can oni sleep n hardly move more in thr.. cost arnd RM5xx++ ok?! siao ar?! like that no need to work.. just rent room to other ppl oso can become a rich person ad.. = = 

the BEST solution for me .. i think is to work for the job that i need first ... for now. 
i have the best (considered the most suitable) work place, place to stay, income... etc in my mind already.. hope that i can get it like ASAP. work arnd 3 yrs.. den oni go for other things~ 8 ) 

when i have a job.. i will feel calmer.. n less tension.. however.. still depends on what job is that..eek..~ 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

IDK

总是不知道自己为什么会无端端 哭..
真的说不出任何原因..
也许是累了 想有个依靠安慰/安抚一下自己..

偏偏却又遇上不知情的木头.. >?<
乱七八糟、胡乱一通的一个星期终于过去了..
希望今天起.. 一切顺利点~~ ~






有时 担心太多 也无济于事.. 只会把自己卷入不必要的烦恼中..
可是当有些东西没说出来.. 日子久了.. 就会形成不知何来的压力..
就算要说.. 我也不记得是什么了.. = =
就这样咯......... lolx.. >?<


wanna tell u alot of things.. wanna share wid u alot of things.. but v don haf much of the common time..
im afraid that one day.. i will left out watever thing that u shld have known but i didnt get to tell u..
im even more afraid that u will tell me that.. that's NOYB.. while i tell u excitedly or emo-ly like an idiot..
zZz... haiz..
when v both are also working.. will things get worst?
don tell me im thinking too much..
im afraid that i couldnt get use to it later..
tat's y i wanted to make myself get use to bz days first..
den only i can have chance/time to get use to other stuff.. >?<
idk idk idk la.... =_____=

*~ eNd ~*

Friday, May 25, 2012

毕业了,就代表做什么都要更认真了~
希望快点找到工作吧~ 嘻嘻 


毕业前,说真的我看到的,却是一些人的不成熟.. 自己自私,还要投诉别人自私,实在无言。 更无言的是, 有问题时却不敢去voice out 争取。 什么世界来的?尝试要去相信别人可以把事情办好,可是往往却会失望透底.. haiz 结果还得让女生解决,你们男生不会觉得羞耻吗? 回想当时, 你们都会笑自己吧? ~ 希望大家工作后会更会想、更会理直气壮地protect 自己对的东西.. 简的来说.. 祝大家成熟点呗~ 很想personally 告诉你们,可是你们不是像foundation 朋友那样能接受意见或批评.. 就算不是骂你们,你们都会觉得是被骂.. 所以呢,我才不要做笨蛋去亲自跟你们说~ 因为你们不可能会听 且接受的.. 连 要 开玩笑 zat 你们一下都不敢.. 太认真只会自己吃亏呀~  haiz.. 


回到家 , 结果还是一样烦 ~ 听多多投诉 这个不会想, 那个不会想.. zzz 该怎么帮他们 ? 讲 又不一定会听~  听了 又不一定明白~ lolx ~ 
我, 越来越讨厌钱.. 它让人变了个样 .. 
一旦一个人有钱.. 他/她 就会开始 "兰西" .. 
一旦一个人有钱.. 他/她 就会开始嫌这个 不够好 嫌那个不够好~ 或许因为我还没真正踏入社会工作.. 但 也不必那样吧?
一旦一个人有钱.. 他/她 也许会认为.. 没什么 是得不到的.. (太异想天开了吧?) 没努力争取, 又怎么会能够拥有呢??~ 
haizZz... 


feel like writing out a lot of things.. but i have no idea whr to start from... i need some place to throw out everyth.... >"< eek...



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