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pk jz now.. nth much.. juz tat the big toes numb liao yi xia.. =="
juz stepped on the floor that was jz being mopped..
(it was quite wet.. got lil water/soap.. idk..)
and it gaf me a free "skate" .. = =
if i get to knock my head..
will i lost some memories?
can i throw some memories by tat way?
and oni remain those happie one's~
can i restart my brain?~
can i totally empty up my brain ?
so tat better info/memories can be inserted..?
haizzz...
nv fall b4.. mana will learn things rite?
but .. i really hate tat..
it really gave me a great phobia...
i stay away from sth.. sth oso stay away from me..
great.. wth.. =="
how u treat me.. i will treat u back the same way..
may be better.. or.. may be worst~
depends on how i feel...
when i care too much... i tend to lose sth..
when i do not wan to care much.. i probably goin to lose sth oso..
things juz don seems to stay wid me for long..
and .. im protecting myself from the feeling of losing sth? maybb..
no wonder i cant trust.. bcoz u cant trust either..
u don feel safe.. i don feel safe either..
u juz don trust tat i wun simply laii..
y don i juz simply laii? .. since.. thr's no trust oso..
wat's the difference?
things always being discussed over words..
but nth will b discussed when ftf..
i don understand y....
and it doesnt seems to be better from time to time...
wat's wrong wid me ?? i really dunno..
if i noe myself more.. mayb.. u will b able to understand more bt me..
but.. i don even noe myself..
wth..

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so in ♥ ....

so in ♥ wid BROS' water bottles~ =þ
hohoho..
the 1st BROS water bottle tat i had is a bottle wid main wording of "FOCUS"..
it remind me to focus... focus ... n focus~ xD
whenever dreaming in class.. my fren would show me my bottle..
to ask me to be FOCUS!
and i will hug it to continue my class.. lolx..
instead of jotting down some notes..
yes...
i date wid my bottle in class.. xDD

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the reason i so in ♥ wid BROS' bottle is bcoz the water will never leak out when i simply throw it into my bag~ ^^
it is very frustratin to noe tat ur bag is wet.. bcoz of ur stupid bottle..

i got a 700ml BROS bottle..
and lately..
i added another family member.. that is of 1000ml geh~ hoho

i like to browse their website..
to look see look see..
and eventually..
those bottles attracted me to get them...
lolx.. (HOWEVER.. i haven buy them yet .. so far =s )

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share some bottles tat i think is pretty de wid u all bah~ ; )

tis one has a nice body shape~ xpp

tis one has my fav unicorn!~ ♥

tis one is the prettiest among its series~

and tis lil one.. is oni 350ml..
it's cute..
and i wanna get tis one..
so tat i can bring it out when i go shopping or anth~
hoho..
it wouldnt b very heavy~
nice~ ^^

♥

=/

most guy.. oso so insensitive de o ?
signaling.. duno..
direct meanin.. duno..
hidden meanin.. sure duno..
den wat oni noe ? =="

do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u're quite/very a******g?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me quite/very fr********g?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me sp******ss?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me s*d?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me feel like killin myself?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. u made me feel tat im a l***r ?
do u noe tat.. sometimes.. im lost.. i duno wat u wan.. i duno wat i wan..
it's dam freaking frustrated! bcoz u never wan to respond!
it's either.. "i duno wat to respond" .. "wat u expect me to say?" or "don wanna say liao" ..
running from reality?
don wanna solve them?
den continue argue bah liao..
or wait till one day.. when im tired of waiting.. u slowly argue wid urself oni..

i.. will feel tat im bad now.. bcoz u ad more rajin tis sem.. a bit..
n u prob will say tat i keep pressure u for nonsense..
o watever.. i really duno..
bcoz u lazy to say.. =="
how would u expect me to noe everyth?
o nth's actually is tat important izit ?
i .. really duno..

shld i start practicing back wat i used to b?..

a loner... ?



p.s: btw.. the msg that i posted to u ytd.. it was oni visible to u.. and nobody can sees it.. but u even lazy to reply o lazy to find out wat actually it was abt.. u doesnt care anymore.. are u?

fantastic.. im all alone wid questions tat will not haf answers..
great..

and .. u prob wun see tis until duno when.. =/