problem? solved? yes. no.

it's been a long long longggg time didnt write here.. 
hmm.. recently have lotz of random thoughts in my head.. n it really caused me major headache like all the time.. sometimes, i know what im thinking abt.. sometimes, i don't! it is very very frustrating! = = 
most headache that i got is from the problem of being jobless.. eek.. 
well.. i wanted a vacation or sth for a mth but nth really came out .. just bcz i planned to have a vacation tat's y it wouldnt happen gua.. no matter what i planned.. it will just failed to be accomplished! 
b4 u work.. "don't be silly, u have no money n not even started to earn money.. how r u goin to enjoy? "
after u work.. "don't be silly, whr can u find such holidays for urself? u are nt the boss~ don even think abt a week of holidays......." 
arghh... 

and think about this, even when u know what u want, or probably what u wanna study.. without a stable job.. how r u going to achieve that?
a job that u want/like/interested, might be a dam low income job.. 
a job that u need/not related to what u study, might be a dam high pay job.. 
so.. tell me.. how a normal human will make a decision on this? 
when u go for low income job.. u wouldnt be able to afford urself to further study some more..
when u go for the high income job.. after u work for long term.. im afraid that i wouldnt want to study anymoreee.... !! 

besides this.. i don wanna trouble anyone to bring me to work.. when i need to work at far far place.. i need to travel long long hours.. by public transports.. n not to mention that.. buses .. usually are not on time one.. it is a big disaster ok? another solution? stay outside.. well.. im not allowed to do so.. and the rental is so fcuking high ok?! i even heard.. a store room size that u can oni sleep n hardly move more in thr.. cost arnd RM5xx++ ok?! siao ar?! like that no need to work.. just rent room to other ppl oso can become a rich person ad.. = = 

the BEST solution for me .. i think is to work for the job that i need first ... for now. 
i have the best (considered the most suitable) work place, place to stay, income... etc in my mind already.. hope that i can get it like ASAP. work arnd 3 yrs.. den oni go for other things~ 8 ) 

when i have a job.. i will feel calmer.. n less tension.. however.. still depends on what job is that..eek..~