w.t.h. why? think? hell?

i think a lot.. yes i do..
since young i have been taught to think before i do anth..
bcz last time i used to do a thing first.. den oni think...
at the end..
i will kena watever consequences it might be..
kena cane.. kena scold like nobody's business ..
be the paku in the eyes of whoever he/she is..
SO..
i will think dam freakin lots b4 doin anth..
as a result.. i think too much?
so either way oso is not good?..
u tell me..
how oni is the best?
don think or think?
don tell me to think moderately.. i duno each person geh moderate level is kat mana!

u see.. whenever i think for other ppl..
i kena scold o bein said stupid o idiot..
when i don care..
i will be said as selfish..
so how ?

n....
i will angry..
i do know wat is angry..
so don make me angry..
don tell me i don haf pi qi..
so.. i wun angry..
pls la.. im human oso k?
when u r too over.. i will angry..
but .. when i angry.. can someone at least pls take it seriously? >?<
haizzz..

n..
i don understand y..
ppl seems like don respect me at all..
for example..
i took my lappy somewhr to fix it..
i talked to a person in charge tat help me wid it most of the time..
BUT.. he will still go n talk to my mom or sis to explain watever happen to my lappy..
dam it! the owner is here ok?!
u tell them.. they oso tak tau apa-apa punya la.. deng..
im not a small kid ok?!
wtF!!
altho not oni him will do tat..
many ppl normally will ignore me oso..
well... u can imagine..
when me n my sis together..
we go to a place together..
normally.. ppl will serve her n not me...
im not attractive.. i know..
and im even short!
so.. im not like a normal grown up girl...
so.. i will always be treated like a kiddo?
who say short is not a problem?
u wanna try to be me see see how will tat feel?
den oni u come n tell me short is nth..

be confident?
well.. i tried..
n im scare to be confident..

i haf no faith in myself..
i look down on myself.. tats y others will oso look down on me?

conclusion..
i worry too much? ..


I DONT KNOW.