w.t.h. why? think? hell?

i think a lot.. yes i do..
since young i have been taught to think before i do anth..
bcz last time i used to do a thing first.. den oni think...
at the end..
i will kena watever consequences it might be..
kena cane.. kena scold like nobody's business ..
be the paku in the eyes of whoever he/she is..
SO..
i will think dam freakin lots b4 doin anth..
as a result.. i think too much?
so either way oso is not good?..
u tell me..
how oni is the best?
don think or think?
don tell me to think moderately.. i duno each person geh moderate level is kat mana!

u see.. whenever i think for other ppl..
i kena scold o bein said stupid o idiot..
when i don care..
i will be said as selfish..
so how ?

n....
i will angry..
i do know wat is angry..
so don make me angry..
don tell me i don haf pi qi..
so.. i wun angry..
pls la.. im human oso k?
when u r too over.. i will angry..
but .. when i angry.. can someone at least pls take it seriously? >?<
haizzz..

n..
i don understand y..
ppl seems like don respect me at all..
for example..
i took my lappy somewhr to fix it..
i talked to a person in charge tat help me wid it most of the time..
BUT.. he will still go n talk to my mom or sis to explain watever happen to my lappy..
dam it! the owner is here ok?!
u tell them.. they oso tak tau apa-apa punya la.. deng..
im not a small kid ok?!
wtF!!
altho not oni him will do tat..
many ppl normally will ignore me oso..
well... u can imagine..
when me n my sis together..
we go to a place together..
normally.. ppl will serve her n not me...
im not attractive.. i know..
and im even short!
so.. im not like a normal grown up girl...
so.. i will always be treated like a kiddo?
who say short is not a problem?
u wanna try to be me see see how will tat feel?
den oni u come n tell me short is nth..

be confident?
well.. i tried..
n im scare to be confident..

i haf no faith in myself..
i look down on myself.. tats y others will oso look down on me?

conclusion..
i worry too much? ..


I DONT KNOW.

烦_烦"

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除了 烦。。 还是 烦。。

report 那边。。
一个不错大问题。。

fyp 那边。。
西北 大 问题。。
她认识我~ 我不认识它~
哦我天!!


do sth tat interest me?
ahem.. wat i wanted to noe..
is sth cant be found in any journals on9 for free ..

so...
i listened to my senior..
do sth tat i can get resources easily..

so..
im chging to a topic tat is quite normal 到不行..
but im afraid tat my topic will clash wid precious senior o sth..
which i nid to go search for it at uni library nx sem?
too late le bah?!
week 1 nid pass up the proposal ad.. whr got such time to do tat?
except.. i go back kampar live for a month b4 uni starts..
possible? ==



i found many journals... but they were mostly irrelevant to my topic..
how?
take them as references oso? T_T
im begging u.. my dear brain..
pls work sth DAM FREAKIN EASY out plzzz~


im dam nervous... ='(

why why why??

想说..
在家里越久.. 越不开心..
越多约束.. 越不开心..
haiz..

想说..
为什么没人惹你... 你也会在那边发脾气?
为什么你被责问 wrongly.. 他们却还会跟你说一声那是他们怪错了..?

我呢? 我不是人么?
怎么我被骂错了.. 被责怪错误..
都没人来向我道歉? 都没人帮我说话?
有事情的时候.. 就跟我投诉.. 问我这个那个..
没事的时候.. 就把我当作废的..
你那个 他妈的 宝贝儿子.. 怎样的烂态度跟你说话.. 都 mao 问题..
怎样凶你.. 也不会骂..
最多等到有事情发生了.. 才骂到好像要世界大战酱..
那样还不止.. 还害买其他人无辜受罪..
没事都要被骂一顿..
前世欠了你的吗?!
鸡蛋糕

想说..
你那样gok hei..
结果本来高血压的你.. 更加向老人家般.. 血压高.. ==
还要骂你的人服侍你..
我看到都想送你几拳!! wtF!!
明明两方都有错..
明明你不该没大没小地跟大人说话..
明明那样你就是很错了..
偏偏.. 她还帮你骂他..
要是当时的对象是你的朋友.. 或.. 你的女友..
你一定不会那样对他们!
要是你的女朋友看到你真正的态度..
要是你的女朋友看到你怎样对家人..
要是你的女朋友看到你那霸道大少爷的脾气..
看她还会留在你身边吗?

每当看到别人fat lan za..
我的心情就会超级无敌差!!
尤其是那些为了无聊没用的原因 而 在那边 fat lan za 的..
看了更火滚..

为什么..
你、她、他、她、他.. 都可以 fat lan za..
就只有我不可以 fat lan za?!?
什么都不可以!!!
argh!!

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pk jz now.. nth much.. juz tat the big toes numb liao yi xia.. =="
juz stepped on the floor that was jz being mopped..
(it was quite wet.. got lil water/soap.. idk..)
and it gaf me a free "skate" .. = =
if i get to knock my head..
will i lost some memories?
can i throw some memories by tat way?
and oni remain those happie one's~
can i restart my brain?~
can i totally empty up my brain ?
so tat better info/memories can be inserted..?
haizzz...
nv fall b4.. mana will learn things rite?
but .. i really hate tat..
it really gave me a great phobia...
i stay away from sth.. sth oso stay away from me..
great.. wth.. =="
how u treat me.. i will treat u back the same way..
may be better.. or.. may be worst~
depends on how i feel...
when i care too much... i tend to lose sth..
when i do not wan to care much.. i probably goin to lose sth oso..
things juz don seems to stay wid me for long..
and .. im protecting myself from the feeling of losing sth? maybb..
no wonder i cant trust.. bcoz u cant trust either..
u don feel safe.. i don feel safe either..
u juz don trust tat i wun simply laii..
y don i juz simply laii? .. since.. thr's no trust oso..
wat's the difference?
things always being discussed over words..
but nth will b discussed when ftf..
i don understand y....
and it doesnt seems to be better from time to time...
wat's wrong wid me ?? i really dunno..
if i noe myself more.. mayb.. u will b able to understand more bt me..
but.. i don even noe myself..
wth..

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so in ♥ ....

so in ♥ wid BROS' water bottles~ =þ
hohoho..
the 1st BROS water bottle tat i had is a bottle wid main wording of "FOCUS"..
it remind me to focus... focus ... n focus~ xD
whenever dreaming in class.. my fren would show me my bottle..
to ask me to be FOCUS!
and i will hug it to continue my class.. lolx..
instead of jotting down some notes..
yes...
i date wid my bottle in class.. xDD

♥ ♥ ♥

the reason i so in ♥ wid BROS' bottle is bcoz the water will never leak out when i simply throw it into my bag~ ^^
it is very frustratin to noe tat ur bag is wet.. bcoz of ur stupid bottle..

i got a 700ml BROS bottle..
and lately..
i added another family member.. that is of 1000ml geh~ hoho

i like to browse their website..
to look see look see..
and eventually..
those bottles attracted me to get them...
lolx.. (HOWEVER.. i haven buy them yet .. so far =s )

♥ ♥ ♥

share some bottles tat i think is pretty de wid u all bah~ ; )

tis one has a nice body shape~ xpp

tis one has my fav unicorn!~ ♥

tis one is the prettiest among its series~

and tis lil one.. is oni 350ml..
it's cute..
and i wanna get tis one..
so tat i can bring it out when i go shopping or anth~
hoho..
it wouldnt b very heavy~
nice~ ^^

♥